A theme that is often persistent in my life is waiting. Waiting for the right time, feeling, day, song or for permission- and
this almost always guarantees malcontent. Malcontent for whatever I am currently doing. Generally, it is waiting for my life to be something different than it is at that moment. I fall into the trap of killing time. Waiting to be thinner, have more money, to be in New York or in Los Angeles, away from family, near family, or just plain happier. What has become apparent is that it all of this waiting and killing time has been the main culprit to a pair of another all too familiar themes in my life, unhappiness and lack of connectedness.
All of this time spent waiting has left me with the understanding that waiting is death. It is the death of good ideas, spontaneity and creativity. It is the thing that keeps me from moving forward and keeps me from going through with the best of ideas.
What does that have to do with Pilgrim? Well, for a minute now, I have wanted to expand on the format. However, articulating on what the expansion would be seemed to elude me, until this week. I'm intrigued by the idea and manifestation of "The Pursuit of Happiness" and how living with intention may actually be easier, and even more fulfilling, than it sounds. I am inclined to explore this further with an audience. In the hopes that out of inherent unhappiness, malcontent and lack of connectedness, something more full and real could grow and bring about a real and genuine happiness.
In the past, the "Type A" Tendencies I have would have kept me waiting on this change until the New Year, because it is so very close and it would be so very perfect, in the way of timing. However, in keeping with the now, "waiting is death" theme, I am compelled to act now, in the present, rather than in the future.
Pilgrim, traveler and wayfarer, anything is a possibility and here right now.
Enjoy,
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